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WHAT GOES AROUND,
COMES AROUND
October 2006, it was 6.30pm on a cold, wet and miserable
evening as Jenny wearily climbed the stairs to her two bedroom flat on
the third floor of an old tenement block in Glasgow’s east end. She was
laden down with four bags of groceries. Jenny was 33 but she looked ten
years older, she was downtrodden and dressed in a very plain plaid
skirt, black cardigan that stretched over her neat little pregnancy
bump, grey duffle coat and black lace up shoes. She wore no make up and
her self-cut, dull and lifeless brown hair hung in an uneven bob.
She put her key in the door, ‘Is that you Jenny? What
kept you I’m starving!’ shouted her demanding husband Harry from the wee
second bedroom which he had converted into his ‘den’. He spent every
spare minute at his computer and if he wasn’t doing that he was out all
evening and didn’t come home until dawn. ‘I’ll put the kettle on and
make you a cup of tea before I start dinner’ answered Jenny from the
kitchen. She breathed out a huge sigh of exhaustion as she dropped the
heavy bags of groceries on the floor.
Before she married Harry, Jenny lived with her widowed
mother in the same rented flat. She nursed her sick mother for fourteen
years after she was left paralysed and speechless from a stroke. Her
mother died last year when Jenny was thirty-two leaving Jenny
alone in the world, she had no brothers, sisters, aunts,
uncles or cousins. Jenny had led a very sheltered life, she was nervous
and lacked a lot of confidence, she was anxious to get out into the
world to earn some money and live her life but she was apprehensive
about starting a career, apart from a newspaper round when she was a
teenager, she had never really had a job before. She would have liked an
office job but she had no experience, she liked sewing so she ended up
working as a machinist in a factory.
Harry was a twenty-eight year old delivery man at the
same factory. He was very forward, sarcastic and cocky. He wasn’t very
well liked but Jenny was flattered by his attention and cheeky
compliments so agreed to go out with him. This was a new experience for
her; she had never had a boyfriend before. When Harry went to kiss her
at the end of their first date she was extremely shy, at thirty two,
this was her first proper kiss. Harry realised how naive she was and for
the benefit of his own self-satisfaction he put her at ease but Jenny
was having none of it, she was scared and told him to stop immediately.
‘C’mon don’t be silly, you’re a woman in your thirties for goodness
sake, everybody’s doing it!’ Harry tried to persuade her. ‘Well I’m not!
That sort of thing is for married women!’ answered Jenny as she quickly
buttoned up her blouse in embarrassment.
Within four weeks Harry proposed to Jenny and she was
delighted to accept much to the dismay of her workmates who had tried to
warn her that he was up to no good but their advice was falling on deaf
ears. Harry and Jenny married at the local registry office six weeks
later on Jenny’s thirty-third birthday. No-one was invited to their
wedding, so they called two witnesses in from the street.
Harry moved into Jenny’s wee rented two bedroomed flat
which she had transferred to her name after her mother had passed away.
Jenny began to worry that she didn’t know Harry at all, he became
solemn, and he always had excuses about losing his wage packet or having
to pay extra tax. It wasn’t long until Jenny realised that she had made
a big mistake in marrying this man without knowing his background, he
never spoke about his family, she didn’t know them nor had she even met
them. He was no company to her whatsoever, if he wasn’t at his computer
he was out on the town. He demanded his conjugal rights at least five
times a week. Jenny hated it; it was over and done with in three minutes
and did nothing for her. She had suspicions that he had another woman
and was leading a double life but she was scared and never dared to
question him. Jenny was alone and frightened when within fourth months
of her marriage to Harry, she discovered that she was pregnant. He
didn’t offer her any understanding or help. He continued to ignore her
and left her to get on with it. Jenny carried on working at the factory
because Harry wasn’t giving her any money and she needed her wages to
survive. She worried about what was going to happen when she had to give
up work to have the baby. One day Rita, who was a buxom brunette of
Spanish origin and one of Jenny’s workmates at the factory, mentioned
casually to her, ‘Here, your Harry must have had some winner? You’ll be
able to buy a nice pram eh!’ ‘What do you mean?’ asked Jenny. ‘I was in
the bookies to put on a bet for my old dad and I saw the bookie handing
him a wad of notes last night, don’t tell me he never said anything, he
must be going to surprise you!’ answered Rita.
That night Jenny lay in bed in silence as she turned over
in her head what Rita had told her. At 4am she was awakened by Harry’s
key in the door. She didn’t know where her courage came from but she
blurted out to him, ‘Have you got another woman?’ Harry looked at her in
anger and answered in disgust, ‘what the hell are you talking about, you
stupid woman? Don’t you think I have enough trouble with you, never mind
another daft bitch? Now move over, I’ve had a hard day and need
my kip!’ ‘Rita saw the bookie hand you a load of money.’ Jenny couldn’t
believe that she had faced up to Harry and questioned him. Harry sat
bolt upright, ‘Well Rita had no damn right telling you this. I’ll speak
to her in the morning; it’s none of her business and definitely none of
yours!’
The next day at work Harry made a bee-line for Rita and
told her to keep her nose out of his affairs, one word led to another
and they were both pulled in before the management. Rita had witnesses
to say that Harry had verbally attacked her and she was only defending
herself. This wasn’t the first time that Harry had caused trouble at the
factory, he had two previous warnings and now the management had enough,
he was given his cards and escorted off the premises. Rita felt bad
because she knew that Jenny would get the brunt of it when she got home.
‘I don’t know what I’m going to do’ cried Jenny, then through her tears
she confessed to Rita how desperately unhappy and worried she was, she
told her how Harry doesn’t give her any money and he stays out all
night. ‘C’mon it’s tea-break time, let’s go through to the kitchen and
make a cuppa’ said Rita as she tried to console Jenny. Rita stirred her
tea and said, ‘Jenny didn’t you know when you married Harry that he was
a gambler? His mother chucked him out of the house because he gambled
his wages every week and gave her nothing. At twenty-eight he was a
burden to her and she was glad to see the back of him!’ ‘But why does he
stay out all night, the bookies aren’t open at that time, he must have
someone else!’ cried Jenny. ‘Jenny I don’t think he’s seeing another
woman, he’s most likely playing cards all night for big money, that’s
why he never has anything left to give you! I just thought that maybe
with the baby on the way he had come to his senses and would be giving
you a fair share of the big win he had at the bookies towards buying
equipment for the nursery!’ ‘Hmmph, what nursery? The small room is his
den, when he’s not out, he’s in there at his computer!’ replied Jenny.
‘Oh god he could be gambling on-line too!’ answered Rita. ‘How can he do
that, where’s the money coming from?’ asked Jenny in disbelief. ‘Credit
cards?’ Rita questioned, screwing her face up as if to break it to Jenny
gently. ‘Oh No,’ you don’t think……? What the hell have I got myself
into?’ asked Jenny as she plucked a tissue out of the box to wipe away
her tears. ‘I’m sorry Jenny, this is my entire fault for opening my big
mouth in the first place,’ replied Rita apologetically as she put her
arm round Jenny to comfort her. ‘No it’s not, I’m glad you did,
everything is more clear and making sense to me now.
‘Do you want mince or fish for dinner?’ Jenny shouted
through to Harry, there wasn’t any reply, she quietly tutted and
breathed out an angry, frustrated sigh as she muttered under her breath
‘Well if you’re too busy gambling all our money
away to answer me, you can just take what I decide to give you!’
She made two mugs of tea, one black with no sugar for
herself and the other with milk and two sugars for her husband. She
dreaded going through to the room because nothing had been discussed
between them since he was sacked from the factory earlier that day. Her
stomach was churning as she made her way to the wee room with the mug of
tea in her hand. She pushed the door open, keeping her eye on the tea so
as not to spill it, ‘Dinner won’t be long,’ she blurted out as if trying
to cover up for the day’s events. She looked up and saw Harry slumped
over his computer with his face pressed against the keyboard. ‘Harry,
wake up, I’ve got a mug of tea for you. You should go to bed if you’re
tired!’ Jenny put the mug down on the desk then shook Harry; she reeled
back in horror as his arm fell heavily down by his side. Jenny screamed
then ran through to the kitchen; she was talking to herself saying over
and over again, ‘What am I going to do? What am I going to do?’
She tried to compose herself and said out loud, ‘dial 999, that’s
what I have to do, dial 999.’ She picked up the phone but every time
she tried to dial 999 her shaking hands pressed the wrong number.
Eventually after six attempts she got through. ‘Emergency, which service
please?’ asked the operator. ‘I don’t know, ambulance, I suppose but
then maybe police because I think it might be too late for an
ambulance,’ stammered Jenny in a shocked trance.
Jenny sat in the ambulance watching the paramedic work
tirelessly on her husband for the short journey to the hospital. When
they arrived, he was whisked out of the ambulance and straight into a
side room at the A&E department where a team were waiting. Jenny ran
along behind them, when she got to the door an arm went across to stop
her entering the room and a nurse said, ‘Best if you wait here in the
waiting room, the doctor will come out and talk to you soon!’ Jenny sat
there for what seemed like an eternity but was actually no more than
fifteen minutes. Eventually a man in a green gown, hat and mask
appeared, he looked at Jenny as he pulled his face mask down and pursed
his lips. Jenny screwed her face up and bit her bottom lip, she knew
what was coming next but she said nothing. ‘I’m sorry, there was nothing
we could do, he’s gone, he was dead on arrival’ said the doctor as he
put his arm round Jenny to comfort her. ‘Dead? But why? What? How could
he die, he’s not even twenty-nine? Stuttered Jenny in shock. ‘It looks
like heart attack but as it’s a sudden death there will have to be a
post mortem to confirm this’. Jenny was shocked by the circumstances but
she didn’t feel any sadness, infact she felt burden-free. This deep-down
relief caused her to feel quite guilty.
The post mortem confirmed that Harry had died of natural
causes due to a heart attack. Fortunately Jenny was practical minded and
after realising how much it cost for her mother’s funeral she had the
presence of mind to take out a joint life insurance policy for herself
and Harry just after they got married, luckily there was just enough to
cover the funeral expenses.
Jenny was in a turmoil, not only was she almost six
months pregnant but now there were lots of bills, threats from loan
companies, credit card and final demands for thousands of pounds coming
in. When Jenny cared for her mum she always budgeted well and made sure
everything was paid on time but when Harry and she got married, he took
control of the purse strings. Jenny assumed that he was paying all the
bills but unfortunately this was not so, the extent of his gambling was
coming to the fore. Jenny took compassionate leave from work and sat at
home crying her eyes out, she never had much to begin with but this man
had come into her life and bled her dry. One morning she woke up and
realised that she was getting nowhere sitting feeling sorry for herself;
she had a baby in her belly to consider. So with a positive attitude she
went into work, she confided to her pal Rita, she told her about the
mess that Harry had left her in and the state of her finances. ‘Right
you’ll have to go to the Citizens Advice Bureau and get help, what about
the house, is it in his name?’ asked Rita. ‘No, it’s still in my name, I
never changed it even although Harry kept on at me so do so!’ replied
Jenny. ‘Well that’s a godsend, I’m sure they can’t touch anything in the
house if it’s rented in your name, but check out the facts, just incase.
Have you tried to get into his computer? That might tell you the extent
of the money he owes’ quizzed Rita. ‘No, I wouldn’t even know how to
turn it on!’ answered Jenny. ‘My son is a bit of a computer whizz kid,
if you like I’ll ask him to look at it for you but it won’t be until the
weekend when he’s home from university.’ Rita offered. ‘Oh Rita, that
would be great if he could, do you think he would mind?’ replied Jenny.
‘No, I’m positive that he would be happy to help’ answered Rita. ‘Thank
you so much Rita, I really appreciate your support,’ said Jenny with a
grateful smile.
Jenny called the Citizen’s Advice Bureau and was told to
come in on the following Monday, they told her to bring all the bills
and information that she had. She got home from work that Wednesday
evening to find yet another load of brown envelopes addressed to Harry,
she stuffed them out of sight and out of mind in a kitchen drawer
because she knew, without doubt, that they were from people asking for
money that she didn’t have and this would only add to her depression.
There were more four envelopes addressed to herself, she left them on
the kitchen table then she filled the kettle and switched it on before
emptying her shopping bag of a carton of milk which she put in the
fridge, a French stick, a small tin of tuna and an iceberg lettuce, all
of which she placed on the kitchen worktop. She took a large potato from
her vegetable rack, scrubbed it, pierced it and popped it into the
microwave to bake. She opened the tin of tuna, emptied it onto a plate,
reached into her fridge for the mayonnaise, dipped a large spoon into
the jar and mixed it up with the tuna then she chopped up the iceberg
lettuce, washed it and left it sitting to dry in the colander. She
popped a tea-bag into a mug and poured herself a cuppa then flopped down
on a seat at the kitchen table and casually picked up the four envelopes
examining the outside of them. ‘Well at least they are addressed to
me, so they can’t be bad news,’ she thought as she ripped the first
one open. It was from a credit card company, thinking it was an advert
to encourage her to take out a card she went to discard it but it landed
the other way up on the table and she saw an amount for £8,797.36p.She
picked it up again and stared in confusion as she opened it up fully. It
was indeed a credit card bill addressed to her; Jenny was distraught,
what was going on? She didn’t have any credit cards! Then the truth
dawned on her, Harry had not only been gambling money they didn’t have
in his name but in her name also. She cautiously opened the other three
envelopes only to find to her utter dismay that they were the same.
Altogether the four bills amounted to over £30,000, how was she going to
prove to the credit card company that she knew nothing about these
credit cards? This £30,000 was over and above the thousands of pounds
in debt that Harry had run up in his own name. Jenny lost her appetite
and couldn’t eat her jacket potato and tuna. She took all the envelopes
addressed to Harry from out of the kitchen drawer then she removed the
letters, bills and demands from them and placed them on top of each
other on the kitchen table, she carefully went through them and wrote
down all the amounts that were owed. Jenny felt her heart sink to the
pit of her stomach. She was in despair when she added it all up and
found that it totalled £180,000. What was she going to do? She had
nothing, she didn’t even own her own house, what sort of life could she
offer her new baby? She felt like ending her life. She cried herself to
sleep that night with worry and cursed herself for ever getting involved
with Harry, she was wiser now and realised that he never cared about her
and was only after a place to live along with an address to obtain more
loans for gambling purposes.
By the time Saturday morning came more demands for money
had arrived, Jenny was becoming immune to them, she knew that it didn’t
matter how many there were, there was no way she could pay them. Harry’s
debts now amounted to over £225,000!
Rita arrived with her son at 10am, ‘Hi Jenny, I’ve
brought Adam with me,’ she said as Jenny opened the door. ‘I’m not sure
I want to know about any more debt Harry has run up on the computer!’
said Jenny as she distressingly told Rita about the amount she knew
about so far. ‘Jenny, I think it’s important that you get all the facts
and information you can before you visit the Citizen’s Advice Bureau on
Monday,’ replied Rita. Jenny grudgingly agreed and led Adam into the
small room where Harry’s computer was. After ten minutes Adam came
through to the lounge where the ladies were and said to Jenny, ‘You
wouldn’t happen to know your husband’s ‘user-names’ or passwords, would
you?’ Jenny replied, ‘No I’m sorry, I haven’t a clue and don’t know
anything about his computer.’ ‘Well the whole thing is pointless,
because I can’t do anything unless I can get into the websites he was
using and for that I need to know his ‘user-names’ and passwords!’ Jenny
looked at him in dismay, ‘don’t worry Adam, I’ll know eventually when
they come looking for their money!’ she said. ‘Rita and Adam left
apologising for not being able to help.
It was Sunday morning; Jenny was at her wits end. She
decided it was time to get rid of any traces of Harry from her life and
started to removed his clothes from the wardrobe, as she did so she got
more and more angry, before she knew it she was screaming as the tears
streamed down her face and she ripped Harry’s jackets, trousers, shirts
etc from the wardrobe in temper and flung them on the floor. She threw
herself onto the bed and sobbed her heart out. As she sat up and wiped
away her tears she noticed a piece of blue paper amongst all the clothes
that were strewn on the floor. She opened it up and couldn’t believe
what she was reading; it was all Harry’s user-names and passwords along
with a list of all the websites he visited. Jenny ran through to the
lounge and picked up the phone, she was still distressed and crying as
she called Rita. ‘Is Adam still there?’ she shouted down the phone.
‘Jenny is that you? Are you Ok?’ Rita asked. ‘I’ve found the passwords,
I’ve found the passwords,’ Jenny repeated in emotional exhaustion.
Rita and Adam were round at Jenny’s house just before
noon. ‘Right, we’ll leave Adam to it! I’ve plated up and prepared a
roast dinner for him; he can shove it into your microwave when he’s
hungry. I’m taking you out for a nice glass of wine to relax you then
we’re going back to my place for a Sunday roast dinner. I’m not taking
‘no’ for
an answer, get your coat on!’ Rita told Jenny, who was so
drained by this time that she just did as she was told.
The hours ticked by, it was just after 7pm. Rita had made
Jenny very welcome and that afternoon, along with Rita’s husband and old
dad, Jenny enjoyed a scrumptious roast beef dinner. ‘I think I better be
getting back home now, it’s not fair to Adam, he has to get up early to
go back to university tomorrow morning.’ Jenny said. Just at that point
Rita’s home phone rang. ‘Ok Adam, we’re on our way’ said Rita as she
went to get their coats.
‘Adam’s found something very interesting,’ Rita told
Jenny. ‘What is it?’ asked Jenny, although she really didn’t want to
know because she dreaded any more bad news. ‘He wouldn’t say, he just
asked me to bring you home!’ replied Rita. Jenny closed her eyes and
sighed as if to say ‘here we go again, more
debt!’
Jenny put her key in the lock and took a deep breath as
she opened the door, ‘Ok Adam, give me the bad news, I’m hardened to
it!’ she said as she entered the wee room where Adam was sitting. ‘Well
I’m afraid there is lots of bad news,’ said Adam pointing to an A4
notepad where he had written down a list of company names and the
amounts that Harry owed them. Jenny glanced at the notepad then turned
on her heels in disgust to make for the door. ‘Hold on you haven’t seen
everything yet, I have more information,’ Adam called after her. ‘I’ve
seen enough!’ answered Jenny defiantly. ‘I really think you should see
this, you will find it extremely interesting’ coaxed Adam. ‘What’s
interesting about more debt that I have no means of paying off?’
answered Jenny. ‘I think you should have a look Jenny, Adam seems to
think it’s important!’ said Rita. Jenny made her way through to the wee
room again. ‘Right you might need to sit down for this!’ said Adam as he
pulled a chair over for her. Jenny’s stomach churned like it had done so
many times before in the past few weeks. Adam typed a few letters into
the keyboard, ‘Right look at this website Jenny’. Jenny looked at the
monitor, ‘the national lottery, so how much does Harry owe them?’ she
asked Adam. ‘You can’t owe the national lottery, you pay up front to
gamble’ answered Adam. ‘Ok he’s probably gambled thousands on a credit
card and won a tenner, so what?’ answered the unconvincing Jenny. ‘Look
at this figure at the top Jenny, what does it say?’ Adam smirked. Jenny
peered at the monitor, ‘£3,800,000’ she answered, still not twigging.
‘Yes, that’s how much he’s won,’ laughed Adam. ‘What? Can’t be! Are you
sure? You mean that Harry’s hit the jackpot? Oh my god, my wee mother
must be up there looking after me, she always said behind every cloud
there’s a silver lining!’ exclaimed Jenny, shaking and laughing out loud
in disbelief.
By summer 2007 Jenny was living with her beautiful three
month old daughter Nina in a wonderful detached house with a large
landscaped garden in a small sleepy village near Loch Lomond. It had
been concluded that Harry most likely had a heart attack in excitement
when he discovered he had won the lottery. Jenny shuddered as she
thought about the mess she made of her life in such a small space of
time but in a weird sort of way she was grateful to Harry because
without him she wouldn’t have her gorgeous daughter, or the luxurious
house she now owned. Life had been a bumpy road for Jenny, she had
learned the hard way in the past year and realised that she had a lucky
escape but she was now witnessing sheer happiness. Jenny picked up her
baby daughter and gave her a kiss and satisfying cuddle, she had
everything she needed and her life was complete at last
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